Hello Sweetest,
Every time I think of you, I think what my life would have been without you. I remember with nostalgia the extent of your care, how you have made extra sacrifices to hold us together. This and many more of your gentle care, I can’t take for granted. Before I met you, I had been wallowing in my own path that always seemed right and straight to me without imagining that my life would become more meaningful with the presence of a genius like you.
When I wanted to take a break from our relationship, a lot happened to me , but I was shielded from the turbulences of this life which kept pushing me up and down. I was still silenced by my exuberant experiences , believing that everything would still be rosy with or without you.
I continued mingling and trying my luck, creating new friends, mostly women , hoping that, at the right time in my life, a good replacement of your tender care and love can be reproduced without any iota of stress. It was not easy though , towing that path. Along the path, some traits and characteristics among the friends seem similar to unimaginable love. It dawned on me that a good replacement for you had been made. It didn’t stop there.
Afterwards, questions about who have been my most valuable ladies among all the ladies I have come in contact with from my childhood teenage years and adulthood began to be thrown at me in bubbles by those I feel could have been my pride in life. With a little reluctance to respond, an echo poured into my mind saying “Do not mention my name among those that have affected your life, I count as nothing all we have had together. If it pleases you to journey on your rosy path without me, I have come to learn how to be strong without you. Yes, we shared everything in common, assisted each other and as well be the best and attempt to achieve the best for ourselves, I count them as nothing but only trust and believe the only thing that will bind us together is our natural infant love that was not initiated by, formed by or connected to us by anyone. Mention all that you can remember and leave me apart from all and sundry. I will be fine without you, as you have truly believed either by concoction or other human influences that you would be fine without me. Go ahead, your decision has made me strong and I am learning to cope with the circumstances around me.”
After this imaginary thought, it then dawned on me that I might not be treading on the path that seemed right, I continued, keeping a deaf ear to the well-thought ideas that had popped in my mind and are on the verge of vanishing. I said no, you cannot vanish . I held fast to the thought, giving every sense of reasoning to it.
One fateful morning, I just woke up sitting in my parlour ruminating all over the thoughts. The answers that kept coming to mind were; Could all that glitters be gold? Can a snail forget its shell in the course of its journey? Can it be possible to forget what we had at night because morning has made multiple of it with a shining light?
In the middle of these thoughts, all around me began to leave me, I began to see myself as a lone man in the midst of plenty. The promise of all to keep around me at all time could not be found. The happiness of my exuberant journey began to fade away. Even in my serious trial, to keep one around me for common happiness, in my worst noted circumstances could not work.
At that point and moment, I began to realize that truly, there is a natural love and there is infatuation.
Love, even with all your resources, can not produce and sustain to keep around you in turbulent situations. Love that has no foundation and is bedrock in the material things of this world. Your money and resources fade, but this love continues to be a light in your path. It dawns on me that I am alone and treading in the path of my destruction.
I began to reason and recollect the true beginning of the journey of my love.
In first instance, difficulties, resistance and bottlenecks to actualize and hold back the life in my life were all I could meet. With persistence, and a trail of faith for success, I keep pushing towards access to my beautiful love of life. It was not enough, I sought assistance from the closest my true love, but that could not solve my problem. Thoughts kept coming into my mind , but the only thing I could recall was the true echo of “Mentioned not my name among all around you.” It was then a battle between reality and imagination in which the only solution was to born the ideal and echo to the reality of love and life.
I paused, began to look back and reecho the echoes in my mind. I realized I was on the wrong route to the journey to adulthood and love, about missing what nature freely bestowed on me.
What consoles me was the adage that says , “Have the ability to realize your mistake, and the ability to realize this mistake gives you the solution power to overcome all the insurmountable.”
All I was still opportune to think was never to miss the only golden egg of mine, which the only thing that connects us was the humility, eulogies of praise as no one seems like her, the recounting of her tender cares, the bonds that have held us together in our relationship and the soft spoken words which have been our watchword in all.
When I finally reconnected with you and you accepted my plea, life began to take another shape around us in joy and happiness, We shared and resumed our journey again in realization of inseparable joy, love and happiness.
I realized that it’s good to relax and cherish what you have, It might not cost you anything, but an attempt to quantify the value with others will keep you astounded as to the great value you possess around you. Be humble, let love and tolerance direct your mind towards realizing your object of joy and happiness.
I’m glad that this new phase in our relationship will last until eternity.
Yours Forever
Roby.
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